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Chapter XXI Wherein Philip Ammon Returns to the Limberlost, and Elnora Studies the Situation WE MUST be
thinking about supper, mother," said Elnora, while she set the wings of a
Cecropia with much care. "It seems as if I can't get enough to eat, or
enough of being at home. I enjoyed that city house. I don't believe I could
have done my work if I had been compelled to walk back and forth. I thought at
first I never wanted to come here again. Now, I feel as if I could not live
anywhere else." "Elnora,"
said Mrs. Comstock, "there's some one coming down the road." "Coming
here, do you think?" "Yes,
coming here, I suspect." Elnora
glanced quickly at her mother and then turned to the road as Philip Ammon
reached the gate. "Careful,
mother!" the girl instantly warned. "If you change your treatment of
him a hair's breadth, he will suspect. Come with me to meet him." She dropped
her work and sprang up. "Well,
of all the delightful surprises!" she cried. She was a
trifle thinner than during the previous summer. On her face there was a more
mature, patient look, but the sun struck her bare head with the same ray of red
gold. She wore one of the old blue gingham dresses, open at the throat and
rolled to the elbows. Mrs. Comstock did not appear at all the same woman, but
Philip saw only Elnora; heard only her greeting. He caught both hands where she
offered but one. "Elnora,"
he cried, "if you were engaged to me, and we were at a ball, among
hundreds, where I offended you very much, and didn't even know I had done
anything, and if I asked you before all of them to allow me to explain, to
forgive me, to wait, would your face grow distorted and unfamiliar with anger?
Would you drop my ring on the floor and insult me repeatedly? Oh Elnora, would
you?" Elnora's
big eyes seemed to leap, while her face grew very white. She drew away her
hands. "Hush,
Phil! Hush!" she protested. "That fever has you again! You are
dreadfully ill. You don't know what you are saying." "I am
sleepless and exhausted; I'm heartsick; but I am well as I ever was. Answer me,
Elnora, would you?" "Answer
nothing!" cried Mrs. Comstock. "Answer nothing! Hang your coat there
on your nail, Phil, and come split some kindling. Elnora, clean away that stuff,
and set the table. Can't you see the boy is starved and tired? He's come home
to rest and eat a decent meal. Come on, Phil!" Mrs.
Comstock marched away, and Philip hung his coat in its old place and followed.
Out of sight and hearing she turned on him. "Do
you call yourself a man or a hound?" she flared. "I beg
your pardon —" stammered Philip Ammon. "I
should think you would!" she ejaculated. "I'll admit you did the
square thing and was a man last summer, though I'd liked it better if you'd
faced up and told me you were promised; but to come back here babying, and take
hold of Elnora like that, and talk that way because you have had a fuss with
your girl, I don't tolerate. Split that kindling and I'll get your supper, and
then you better go. I won't have you working on Elnora's big heart, because you
have quarrelled with some one else. You'll have it patched up in a week and be
gone again, so you can go right away." "Mrs.
Comstock, I came to ask Elnora to marry me." "The
more fool you, then!" cried Mrs. Comstock. "This time yesterday you
were engaged to another woman, no doubt. Now, for some little flare-up you come
racing here to use Elnora as a tool to spite the other girl. A week of sane
living, and you will be sorry and ready to go back to Chicago, or, if you
really are man enough to be sure of yourself, she will come to claim you. She
has her rights. An engagement of years is a serious matter, and not broken for
a whim. If you don't go, she'll come. Then, when you patch up your affairs and
go sailing away together, where does my girl come in?" "I am
a lawyer, Mrs. Comstock," said Philip. "It appeals to me as beneath
your ordinary sense of justice to decide a case without hearing the evidence.
It is due me that you hear me first." "Hear
your side!" flashed Mrs. Comstock. "I'd a heap sight rather hear the
girl!" "I
wish to my soul that you had heard and seen her last night, Mrs.
Comstock," said Ammon. "Then, my way would be clear. I never even
thought of coming here to-day. I'll admit I would have come in time, but not
for many months. My father sent me." "Your
father sent you! Why?" "Father,
mother, and Polly were present last night. They, and all my friends, saw me
insulted and disgraced in the worst exhibition of uncontrolled temper any of us
ever witnessed. All of them knew it was the end. Father liked what I had told
him of Elnora, and he advised me to come here, so I came. If she does not want
me, I can leave instantly, but, oh I hoped she would understand!" "You
people are not splitting wood," called Elnora. "Oh
yes we are!" answered Mrs. Comstock. "You set out the things for biscuit,
and lay the table." She turned again to Philip. "I know considerable
about your father," she said. "I have met your Uncle's family
frequently this winter. I've heard your Aunt Anna say that she didn't at all
like Miss Carr, and that she and all your family secretly hoped that something
would happen to prevent your marrying her. That chimes right in with your
saying that your father sent you here. I guess you better speak your
piece." Philip gave
his version of the previous night. "Do
you believe me?" he finished. "Yes,"
said Mrs. Comstock. "May I
stay?" "Oh,
it looks all right for you, but what about her?" "Nothing,
so far as I am concerned. Her plans were all made to start to Europe to-day. I
suspect she is on the way by this time. Elnora is very sensible, Mrs. Comstock.
Hadn't you better let her decide this?" "The
final decision rests with her, of course," admitted Mrs. Comstock.
"But look you one thing! She's all I have. As Solomon says, 'she is the
one child, the only child of her mother.' I've suffered enough in this world
that I fight against any suffering which threatens her. So far as I know you've
always been a man, and you may stay. But if you bring tears and heartache to
her, don't have the assurance to think I'll bear it tamely. I'll get right up
and fight like a catamount, if things go wrong for Elnora!" "I
have no doubt but you will," replied Philip, "and I don't blame you
in the least if you do. I have the utmost devotion to offer Elnora, a good
home, fair social position, and my family will love her dearly. Think it over.
I know it is sudden, but my father advised it." "Yes,
I reckon he did!" said Mrs. Comstock dryly. "I guess instead of me
being the catamount, you had the genuine article up in Chicago, masquerading in
peacock feathers, and posing as a fine lady, until her time came to scratch.
Human nature seems to be the same the world over. But I'd give a pretty to know
that secret thing you say you don't, that set her raving over your just
catching a moth for Elnora. You might get that crock of strawberries in the
spring house." They
prepared and ate supper. Afterward they sat in the arbour and talked, or Elnora
played until time for Philip to go. "Will
you walk to the gate with me?" he asked Elnora as he arose. "Not
to-night," she answered lightly. "Come early in the morning if you
like, and we will go over to Sleepy Snake Creek and hunt moths and gather
dandelions for dinner." Philip
leaned toward her. "May I tell you to-morrow why I came?" he asked. "I
think not," replied Elnora. "The fact is, I don't care why you came.
It is enough for me that we are your very good friends, and that in trouble,
you have found us a refuge. I fancy we had better live a week or two before you
say anything. There is a possibility that what you have to say may change in
that length of time. "It
will not change one iota!" cried Philip. "Then
it will have the grace of that much age to give it some small touch of
flavour," said the girl. "Come early in the morning." She lifted
the violin and began to play. "Well
bless my soul!" ejaculated the astounded Mrs. Comstock. "To think I
was worrying for fear you couldn't take care of yourself!" Elnora
laughed while she played. "Shall
I tell you what he said?" "Nope!
I don't want to hear it!" said Elnora. "He is only six hours from
Chicago. I'll give her a week to find him and fix it up, if he stays that long.
If she doesn't put in an appearance then, he can tell me what he wants to say,
and I'll take my time to think it over. Time in plenty, too! There are three of
us in this, and one must be left with a sore heart for life. If the decision
rests with me I propose to be very sure that it is the one who deserves such
hard luck." The next
morning Philip came early, dressed in the outing clothing he had worn the
previous summer, and aside from a slight paleness seemed very much the same as
when he left. Elnora met him on the old footing, and for a week life went on
exactly as it had the previous summer. Mrs. Comstock made mental notes and
watched in silence. She could see that Elnora was on a strain, though she hoped
Philip would not. The girl grew restless as the week drew to a close. Once when
the gate clicked she suddenly lost colour and moved nervously. Billy came down
the walk. Philip
leaned toward Mrs. Comstock and said: "I am expressly forbidden to speak
to Elnora as I would like. Would you mind telling her for me that I had a
letter from my father this morning saying that Miss Carr is on her way to Europe
for the summer?" "Elnora,"
said Mrs. Comstock promptly, "I have just heard that Carr woman is on her
way to Europe, and I wish to my gracious stars she'd stay there!" Philip
Ammon shouted, but Elnora arose hastily and went to meet Billy. They came into
the arbour together and after speaking to Mrs. Comstock and Philip, Billy said:
"Uncle Wesley and I found something funny, and we thought you'd like to
see." "I
don't know what I should do without you and Uncle Wesley to help me," said
Elnora. "What have you found now?" "Something
I couldn't bring. You have to come to it. I tried to get one and I killed it.
They are a kind of insecty things, and they got a long tail that is three fine
hairs. They stick those hairs right into the hard bark of trees, and if you
pull, the hairs stay fast and it kills the bug." "We
will come at once," laughed Elnora. "I know what they are, and I can
use some in my work." "Billy,
have you been crying?" inquired Mrs. Comstock. Billy lifted a chastened
face. "Yes,
ma'am," he replied. "This has been the worst day." "What's
the matter with the day?" "The
day is all right," admitted Billy. "I mean every single thing has
gone wrong with me." "Now
that is too bad!" sympathized Mrs. Comstock. "Began
early this morning," said Billy. "All Snap's fault, too." "What
has poor Snap been doing?" demanded Mrs. Comstock, her eyes beginning to
twinkle. "Digging
for woodchucks, like he always does. He gets up at two o'clock to dig for them.
He was coming in from the woods all tired and covered thick with dirt. I was going
to the barn with the pail of water for Uncle Wesley to use in milking. I had to
set down the pail to shut the gate so the chickens wouldn't get into the flower
beds, and old Snap stuck his dirty nose into the water and began to lap it
down. I knew Uncle Wesley wouldn't use that, so I had to go 'way back to the
cistern for more, and it pumps awful hard. Made me mad, so I threw the water on
Snap." "Well,
what of it?" "Nothing,
if he'd stood still. But it scared him awful, and when he's afraid he goes
a-humping for Aunt Margaret. When he got right up against her he stiffened out
and gave a big shake. You oughter seen the nice blue dress she had put on to go
to Onabasha!" Mrs.
Comstock and Philip laughed, but Elnora put her arms around the boy. "Oh
Billy!" she cried. "That was too bad!" "She
got up early and ironed that dress to wear because it was cool. Then, when it
was all dirty, she wouldn't go, and she wanted to real bad." Billy wiped
his eyes. "That ain't all, either," he added. "We'd
like to know about it, Billy," suggested Mrs. Comstock, struggling with
her face. "Cos
she couldn't go to the city, she's most worked herself to death. She's done all
the dirty, hard jobs she could find. She's fixing her grape juice now." "Sure!"
cried Mrs. Comstock. "When a woman is disappointed she always works like a
dog to gain sympathy!" "Well,
Uncle Wesley and I are sympathizing all we know how, without her working so.
I've squeezed until I almost busted to get the juice out from the seeds and
skins. That's the hard part. Now, she has to strain it through white flannel
and seal it in bottles, and it's good for sick folks. Most wish I'd get sick
myself, so I could have a glass. It's so good!" Elnora
glanced swiftly at her mother. "I
worked so hard," continued Billy, "that she said if I would throw the
leavings in the woods, then I could come after you to see about the bugs. Do
you want to go?" "We
will all go," said Mrs. Comstock. "I am mightily interested in those
bugs myself." From afar
commotion could be seen at the Sinton home. Wesley and Margaret were running
around wildly and peculiar sounds filled the air. "What's
the trouble?" asked Philip, hurrying to Wesley. "Cholera!"
groaned Sinton. "My hogs are dying like flies." Margaret
was softly crying. "Wesley, can't I fix something hot? Can't we do
anything? It means several hundred dollars and our winter meat." "I
never saw stock taken so suddenly and so hard," said Wesley. "I have
'phoned for the veterinary to come as soon as he can get here." All of them
hurried to the feeding pen into which the pigs seemed to be gathering from the
woods. Among the common stock were big white beasts of pedigree which were
Wesley's pride at county fairs. Several of these rolled on their backs, pawing
the air feebly and emitting little squeaks. A huge Berkshire sat on his
haunches, slowly shaking his head, the water dropping from his eyes, until he,
too, rolled over with faint grunts. A pair crossing the yard on wavering legs
collided, and attacked each other in anger, only to fall, so weak they scarcely
could squeal. A fine snowy Plymouth Rock rooster, after several attempts, flew
to the fence, balanced with great effort, wildly flapped his wings and started
a guttural crow, but fell sprawling among the pigs, too helpless to stand. "Did
you ever see such a dreadful sight?" sobbed Margaret. Billy
climbed on the fence, took one long look and turned an astounded face to
Wesley. "Why
them pigs is drunk!" he cried. "They act just like my pa!" Wesley
turned to Margaret. "Where
did you put the leavings from that grape juice?" he demanded. "I
sent Billy to throw it in the woods." "Billy
—" began Wesley. "Threw
it just where she told me to," cried Billy. "But some of the pigs
came by there coming into the pen, and some were close in the fence
corners." "Did
they eat it?" demanded Wesley. "They
just chanked into it," replied Billy graphically. "They pushed, and
squealed, and fought over it. You couldn't blame 'em! It was the best stuff I
ever tasted!" "Margaret,"
said Wesley, "run 'phone that doctor he won't be needed. Billy, take
Elnora and Mr. Ammon to see the bugs. Katharine, suppose you help me a
minute." Wesley took
the clothes basket from the back porch and started in the direction of the
cellar. Margaret returned from the telephone. "I
just caught him," she said. "There's that much saved. Why Wesley,
what are you going to do?" "You
go sit on the front porch a little while," said Wesley. "You will
feel better if you don't see this." "Wesley,"
cried Margaret aghast. "Some of that wine is ten years old. There are days
and days of hard work in it, and I couldn't say how much sugar. Dr. Ammon keeps
people alive with it when nothing else will stay on their stomachs." "Let
'em die, then!" said Wesley. "You heard the boy, didn't you?" "It's
a cold process. There's not a particle of fermentation about it." "Not a
particle of fermentation! Great day, Margaret! Look at those pigs!" Margaret
took a long look. "Leave me a few bottles for mince-meat," she
wavered. "Not a
smell for any use on this earth! You heard the boy! He shan't say, when he
grows to manhood, that he learned to like it here!" Wesley
threw away the wine, Mrs. Comstock cheerfully assisting. Then they walked to
the woods to see and learn about the wonderful insects. The day ended with a
big supper at Sintons', and then they went to the Comstock cabin for a concert.
Elnora played beautifully that night. When the Sintons left she kissed Billy
with particular tenderness. She was so moved that she was kinder to Philip than
she had intended to be, and Elnora as an antidote to a disappointed lover was a
decided success in any mood. However
strong the attractions of Edith Carr had been, once the bond was finally
broken, Philip Ammon could not help realizing that Elnora was the superior
woman, and that he was fortunate to have escaped, when he regarded his ties
strongest. Every day, while working with Elnora, he saw more to admire. He grew
very thankful that he was free to try to win her, and impatient to justify
himself to her. Elnora did
not evince the slightest haste to hear what he had to say, but waited the week
she had set, in spite of Philip's hourly manifest impatience. When she did
consent to listen, Philip felt before he had talked five minutes, that she was
putting herself in Edith Carr's place, and judging him from what the other
girl's standpoint would be. That was so disconcerting, he did not plead his
cause nearly so well as he had hoped, for when he ceased Elnora sat in silence.
"You
are my judge," he said at last. "What is your verdict?" "If I
could hear her speak from her heart as I just have heard you, then I could
decide," answered Elnora. "She
is on the ocean," said Philip. "She went because she knew she was
wholly in the wrong. She had nothing to say, or she would have remained." "That
sounds plausible," reasoned Elnora, "but it is pretty difficult to
find a woman in an affair that involves her heart with nothing at all to say. I
fancy if I could meet her, she would say several things. I should love to hear them.
If I could talk with her three minutes, I could tell what answer to make
you." "Don't
you believe me, Elnora?" "Unquestioningly,"
answered Elnora. "But I would believe her also. If only I could meet her I
soon would know." "I
don't see how that is to be accomplished," said Philip, "but I am
perfectly willing. There is no reason why you should not meet her, except that
she probably would lose her temper and insult you." "Not
to any extent," said Elnora calmly. "I have a tongue of my own, while
I am not without some small sense of personal values." Philip
glanced at her and began to laugh. Very different of facial formation and
colouring, Elnora at times closely resembled her mother. She joined in his
laugh ruefully. "The
point is this," she said. "Some one is going to be hurt, most
dreadfully. If the decision as to whom it shall be rests with me, I must know
it is the right one. Of course, no one ever hinted it to you, but you are a
very attractive man, Philip. You are mighty good to look at, and you have a
trained, refined mind, that makes you most interesting. For years Edith Carr
has felt that you were hers. Now, how is she going to change? I have been
thinking — thinking deep and long, Phil. If I were in her place, I simply could
not give you up, unless you had made yourself unworthy of love. Undoubtedly,
you never seemed so desirable to her as just now, when she is told she can't
have you. What I think is that she will come to claim you yet." "You
overlook the fact that it is not in a woman's power to throw away a man and
pick him up at pleasure," said Philip with some warmth. "She publicly
and repeatedly cast me off. I accepted her decision as publicly as it was made.
You have done all your thinking from a wrong viewpoint. You seem to have an idea
that it lies with you to decide what I shall do, that if you say the word, I
shall return to Edith. Put that thought out of your head! Now, and for all time
to come, she is a matter of indifference to me. She killed all feeling in my
heart for her so completely that I do not even dread meeting her. "If I
hated her, or was angry with her, I could not be sure the feeling would not
die. As it is, she has deadened me into a creature of indifference. So you just
revise your viewpoint a little, Elnora. Cease thinking it is for you to decide
what I shall do, and that I will obey you. I make my own decisions in reference
to any woman, save you. The question you are to decide is whether I may remain
here, associating with you as I did last summer; but with the difference that
it is understood that I am free; that it is my intention to care for you all I
please, to make you return my feeling for you if I can. There is just one
question for you to decide, and it is not triangular. It is between us. May I
remain? May I love you? Will you give me the chance to prove what I think of
you?" "You
speak very plainly," said Elnora. "This
is the time to speak plainly," said Philip Ammon. "There is no use in
allowing you to go on threshing out a problem which does not exist. If you do
not want me here, say so and I will go. Of course, I warn you before I start,
that I will come back. I won't yield without the stiffest fight it is in me to
make. But drop thinking it lies in your power to send me back to Edith Carr. If
she were the last woman in the world, and I the last man, I'd jump off the
planet before I would give her further opportunity to exercise her temper on
me. Narrow this to us, Elnora. Will you take the place she vacated? Will you
take the heart she threw away? I'd give my right hand and not flinch, if I
could offer you my life, free from any contact with hers, but that is not
possible. I can't undo things which are done. I can only profit by experience
and build better in the future." "I
don't see how you can be sure of yourself," said Elnora. "I don't see
how I could be sure of you. You loved her first, you never can care for me
anything like that. Always I'd have to be afraid you were thinking of her and
regretting." "Folly!"
cried Philip. "Regretting what? That I was not married to a woman who was
liable to rave at me any time or place, without my being conscious of having
given offence? A man does relish that! I am likely to pine for more!" "You'd
be thinking she'd learned a lesson. You would think it wouldn't happen
again." "No, I
wouldn't be 'thinking,'" said Philip. "I'd be everlastingly sure! I
wouldn't risk what I went through that night again, not to save my life! Just
you and me, Elnora. Decide for us." "I
can't!" cried Elnora. "I am afraid!" "Very
well," said Philip. "We will wait until you feel that you can. Wait
until fear vanishes. Just decide now whether you would rather have me go for a
few months, or remain with you. Which shall it be, Elnora?" "You
can never love me as you did her," wailed Elnora. "I am
happy to say I cannot," replied he. "I've cut my matrimonial teeth.
I'm cured of wanting to swell in society. I'm over being proud of a woman for
her looks alone. I have no further use for lavishing myself on a beautiful,
elegantly dressed creature, who thinks only of self. I have learned that I am a
common man. I admire beauty and beautiful clothing quite as much as I ever did;
but, first, I want an understanding, deep as the lowest recess of my soul, with
the woman I marry. I want to work for you, to plan for you, to build you a home
with every comfort, to give you all good things I can, to shield you from every
evil. I want to interpose my body between yours and fire, flood, or famine. I
want to give you everything; but I hate the idea of getting nothing at all on
which I can depend in return. Edith Carr had only good looks to offer, and when
anger overtook her, beauty went out like a snuffed candle. "I
want you to love me. I want some consideration. I even crave respect. I've kept
myself clean. So far as I know how to be, I am honest and scrupulous. It
wouldn't hurt me to feel that you took some interest in these things. Rather
fierce temptations strike a man, every few days, in this world. I can keep decent,
for a woman who cares for decency, but when I do, I'd like to have the fact
recognized, by just enough of a show of appreciation that I could see it. I am
tired of this one-sided business. After this, I want to get a little in return
for what I give. Elnora, you have love, tenderness, and honest appreciation of
the finest in life. Take what I offer, and give what I ask." "You
do not ask much," said Elnora. "As
for not loving you as I did Edith," continued Philip, "as I said
before, I hope not! I have a newer and a better idea of loving. The feeling I
offer you was inspired by you. It is a Limberlost product. It is as much
bigger, cleaner, and more wholesome than any feeling I ever had for Edith Carr,
as you are bigger than she, when you stand before your classes and in calm
dignity explain the marvels of the Almighty, while she stands on a ballroom
floor, and gives way to uncontrolled temper. Ye gods, Elnora, if you could look
into my soul, you would see it leap and rejoice over my escape! Perhaps it
isn't decent, but it's human; and I'm only a common human being. I'm the
gladdest man alive that I'm free! I would turn somersaults and yell if I dared.
What an escape! Stop straining after Edith Carr's viewpoint and take a look
from mine. Put yourself in my place and try to study out how I feel. "I am
so happy I grow religious over it. Fifty times a day I catch myself whispering,
'My soul is escaped!' As for you, take all the time you want. If you prefer to
be alone, I'll take the next train and stay away as long as I can bear it, but
I'll come back. You can be most sure of that. Straight as your pigeons to their
loft, I'll come back to you, Elnora. Shall I go?" "Oh,
what's the use to be extravagant?" murmured Elnora. |