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Chapter I Wherein Elnora Goes to High School and Learns Many Lessons not Found in Her Books “ELNORA
COMSTOCK, have you lost your senses?" demanded the angry voice of
Katharine Comstock while she glared at her daughter. "Why
mother!" faltered the girl. "Don't
you 'why mother' me!" cried Mrs. Comstock. "You know very well what I
mean. You've given me no peace until you've had your way about this going to
school business; I've fixed you good enough, and you're ready to start. But no
child of mine walks the streets of Onabasha looking like a play-actress woman.
You wet your hair and comb it down modest and decent and then be off, or you'll
have no time to find where you belong." Elnora gave
one despairing glance at the white face, framed in a most becoming riot of
reddish-brown hair, which she saw in the little kitchen mirror. Then she untied
the narrow black ribbon, wet the comb and plastered the waving curls close to
her head, bound them fast, pinned on the skimpy black hat and opened the back
door. "You've
gone so plumb daffy you are forgetting your dinner," jeered her mother. "I don't want anything to eat," replied
Elnora. "You'll
take your dinner or you'll not go one step. Are you crazy? Walk almost three
miles and no food from six in the morning until six at night. A pretty figure
you'd cut if you had your way! And after I've gone and bought you this nice new
pail and filled it especial to start on!" Elnora came
back with a face still whiter and picked up the lunch. "Thank you, mother!
Good-bye!" she said. Mrs. Comstock did not reply. She watched the girl
follow the long walk to the gate and go from sight on the road, in the bright
sunshine of the first Monday of September. "I bet
a dollar she gets enough of it by night!" commented Mrs. Comstock. Elnora
walked by instinct, for her eyes were blinded with tears. She left the road
where it turned south, at the corner of the Limberlost, climbed a snake fence
and entered a path worn by her own feet. Dodging under willow and scrub oak
branches she came at last to the faint outline of an old trail made in the days
when the precious timber of the swamp was guarded by armed men. This path she
followed until she reached a thick clump of bushes. From the debris in the end
of a hollow log she took a key that unlocked the padlock of a large
weather-beaten old box, inside of which lay several books, a butterfly
apparatus, and a small cracked mirror. The walls were lined thickly with gaudy
butterflies, dragonflies, and moths. She set up the mirror and once more
pulling the ribbon from her hair, she shook the bright mass over her shoulders,
tossing it dry in the sunshine. Then she straightened it, bound it loosely, and
replaced her hat. She tugged vainly at the low brown calico collar and gazed
despairingly at the generous length of the narrow skirt. She lifted it as she
would have cut it if possible. That disclosed the heavy high leather shoes, at
sight of which she seemed positively ill, and hastily dropped the skirt. She
opened the pail, removed the lunch, wrapped it in the napkin, and placed it in
a small pasteboard box. Locking the case again she hid the key and hurried down
the trail. She
followed it around the north end of the swamp and then entered a footpath
crossing a farm leading in the direction of the spires of the city to the
northeast. Again she climbed a fence and was on the open road. For an instant
she leaned against the fence staring before her, then turned and looked back.
Behind her lay the land on which she had been born to drudgery and a mother who
made no pretence of loving her; before her lay the city through whose schools
she hoped to find means of escape and the way to reach the things for which she
cared. When she thought of how she appeared she leaned more heavily against the
fence and groaned; when she thought of turning back and wearing such clothing
in ignorance all the days of her life, she set her teeth firmly and went
hastily toward Onabasha. On the
bridge crossing a deep culvert at the suburbs she glanced around, and then
kneeling she thrust the lunch box between the foundation and the flooring. This
left her empty-handed as she approached the big stone high school building. She
entered bravely and inquired her way to the office of the superintendent. There
she learned that she should have come the previous week and arranged about her
classes. There were many things incident to the opening of school, and one man
unable to cope with all of them. "Where
have you been attending school?" he asked, while he advised the teacher of
Domestic Science not to telephone for groceries until she knew how many she
would have in her classes; wrote an order for chemicals for the students of
science; and advised the leader of the orchestra to hire a professional to take
the place of the bass violist, reported suddenly ill. "I
finished last spring at Brushwood school, district number nine," said
Elnora. "I have been studying all summer. I am quite sure I can do the
first year work, if I have a few days to get started." "Of
course, of course," assented the superintendent. "Almost invariably
country pupils do good work. You may enter first year, and if it is too
difficult, we will find it out speedily. Your teachers will tell you the list
of books you must have, and if you will come with me I will show you the way to
the auditorium. It is now time for opening exercises. Take any seat you find
vacant." Elnora
stood before the entrance and stared into the largest room she ever had seen.
The floor sloped to a yawning stage on which a band of musicians, grouped
around a grand piano, were tuning their instruments. She had two fleeting
impressions. That it was all a mistake; this was no school, but a grand display
of enormous ribbon bows; and the second, that she was sinking, and had
forgotten how to walk. Then a burst from the orchestra nerved her while a bevy
of daintily clad, sweet-smelling things that might have been birds, or flowers,
or possibly gaily dressed, happy young girls, pushed her forward. She found
herself plodding across the back of the auditorium, praying for guidance, to an
empty seat. As the
girls passed her, vacancies seemed to open to meet them. Their friends were
moving over, beckoning and whispering invitations. Every one else was seated,
but no one paid any attention to the white-faced girl stumbling half-blindly
down the aisle next the farthest wall. So she went on to the very end facing
the stage. No one moved, and she could not summon courage to crowd past others
to several empty seats she saw. At the end of the aisle she paused in
desperation, while she stared back at the whole forest of faces most of which
were now turned upon her. In a flash
came the full realization of her scanty dress, her pitiful little hat and
ribbon, her big, heavy shoes, her ignorance of where to go or what to do; and
from a sickening wave which crept over her, she felt she was going to become
very ill. Then out of the mass she saw a pair of big, brown boy eyes, three
seats from her, and there was a message in them. Without moving his body he
reached forward and with a pencil touched the back of the seat before him.
Instantly Elnora took another step which brought her to a row of vacant front
seats. She heard
laughter behind her; the knowledge that she wore the only hat in the room
burned her; every matter of moment, and some of none at all, cut and stung. She
had no books. Where should she go when this was over? What would she give to be
on the trail going home! She was shaking with a nervous chill when the music
ceased, and the superintendent arose, and coming down to the front of the
flower-decked platform, opened a Bible and began to read. Elnora did not know
what he was reading, and she felt that she did not care. Wildly she was racking
her brain to decide whether she should sit still when the others left the room
or follow, and ask some one where the Freshmen went first. In the
midst of the struggle one sentence fell on her ear. "Hide me under the
shadow of Thy wings." Elnora
began to pray frantically. "Hide me, O God, hide me, under the shadow of
Thy wings." Again and
again she implored that prayer, and before she realized what was coming, every
one had arisen and the room was emptying rapidly. Elnora hurried after the
nearest girl and in the press at the door touched her sleeve timidly. "Will
you please tell me where the Freshmen go?" she asked huskily. The girl
gave her one surprised glance, and drew away. "Same
place as the fresh women," she answered, and those nearest her laughed. Elnora
stopped praying suddenly and the colour crept into her face. "I'll wager
you are the first person I meet when I find it," she said and stopped
short. "Not that! Oh, I must not do that!" she thought in dismay.
"Make an enemy the first thing I do. Oh, not that!" She
followed with her eyes as the young people separated in the hall, some climbing
stairs, some disappearing down side halls, some entering adjoining doors. She
saw the girl overtake the brown-eyed boy and speak to him. He glanced back at
Elnora with a scowl on his face. Then she stood alone in the hall. Presently a
door opened and a young woman came out and entered another room. Elnora waited
until she returned, and hurried to her. "Would you tell me where the
Freshmen are?" she panted. "Straight
down the hall, three doors to your left," was the answer, as the girl
passed. "One
minute please, oh please," begged Elnora. "Should I knock or just
open the door?" "Go in
and take a seat," replied the teacher. "What
if there aren't any seats?" gasped Elnora. "Classrooms
are never half-filled, there will be plenty," was the answer. Elnora
removed her hat. There was no place to put it, so she carried it in her hand.
She looked infinitely better without it. After several efforts she at last
opened the door and stepping inside faced a smaller and more concentrated
battery of eyes. "The
superintendent sent me. He thinks I belong here," she said to the
professor in charge of the class, but she never before heard the voice with
which she spoke. As she stood waiting, the girl of the hall passed on her way
to the blackboard, and suppressed laughter told Elnora that her thrust had been
repeated. "Be
seated," said the professor, and then because he saw Elnora was
desperately embarrassed he proceeded to lend her a book and to ask her if she
had studied algebra. She said she had a little, but not the same book they were
using. He asked her if she felt that she could do the work they were beginning,
and she said she did. That was
how it happened, that three minutes after entering the room she was told to
take her place beside the girl who had gone last to the board, and whose
flushed face and angry eyes avoided meeting Elnora's. Being compelled to
concentrate on her proposition she forgot herself. When the professor asked
that all pupils sign their work she firmly wrote "Elnora Comstock"
under her demonstration. Then she took her seat and waited with white lips and
trembling limbs, as one after another the professor called the names on the
board, while their owners arose and explained their propositions, or
"flunked" if they had not found a correct solution. She was so eager
to catch their forms of expression and prepare herself for her recitation, that
she never looked from the work on the board, until clearly and distinctly,
"Elnora Cornstock," called the professor. The dazed
girl stared at the board. One tiny curl added to the top of the first curve of
the m in her name, had transformed it from a good old English patronymic that
any girl might bear proudly, to Cornstock. Elnora sat speechless. When and how
did it happen? She could feel the wave of smothered laughter in the air around
her. A rush of anger turned her face scarlet and her soul sick. The voice of
the professor addressed her directly. "This
proposition seems to be beautifully demonstrated, Miss Cornstalk," he
said. "Surely, you can tell us how you did it." That word
of praise saved her. She could do good work. They might wear their pretty
clothes, have their friends and make life a greater misery than it ever before
had been for her, but not one of them should do better work or be more womanly.
That lay with her. She was tall, straight, and handsome as she arose. "Of course
I can explain my work," she said in natural tones. "What I can't
explain is how I happened to be so stupid as to make a mistake in writing my
own name. I must have been a little nervous. Please excuse me." She went to
the board, swept off the signature with one stroke, then rewrote it plainly.
"My name is Comstock," she said distinctly. She returned to her seat
and following the formula used by the others made her first high school recitation.
As Elnora
resumed her seat Professor Henley looked at her steadily. "It puzzles
me," he said deliberately, "how you can write as beautiful a
demonstration, and explain it as clearly as ever has been done in any of my
classes and still be so disturbed as to make a mistake in your own name. Are
you very sure you did that yourself, Miss Comstock?" "It is
impossible that any one else should have done it," answered Elnora. "I am
very glad you think so," said the professor. "Being Freshmen, all of
you are strangers to me. I should dislike to begin the year with you feeling
there was one among you small enough to do a trick like that. The next
proposition, please." When the
hour had gone the class filed back to the study room and Elnora followed in
desperation, because she did not know where else to go. She could not study as
she had no books, and when the class again left the room to go to another
professor for the next recitation, she went also. At least they could put her
out if she did not belong there. Noon came at last, and she kept with the
others until they dispersed on the sidewalk. She was so abnormally
self-conscious she fancied all the hundreds of that laughing, throng saw and
jested at her. When she passed the brown-eyed boy walking with the girl of her
encounter, she knew, for she heard him say: "Did you really let that gawky
piece of calico get ahead of you?" The answer was indistinct. Elnora
hurried from the city. She intended to get her lunch, eat it in the shade of the
first tree, and then decide whether she would go back or go home. She knelt on
the bridge and reached for her box, but it was so very light that she was
prepared for the fact that it was empty, before opening it. There was one thing
for which to be thankful. The boy or tramp who had seen her hide it, had left
the napkin. She would not have to face her mother and account for its loss. She
put it in her pocket, and threw the box into the ditch. Then she sat on the
bridge and tried to think, but her brain was confused. "Perhaps
the worst is over," she said at last. "I will go back. What would
mother say to me if I came home now?" So she
returned to the high school, followed some other pupils to the coat room, hung
her hat, and found her way to the study where she had been in the morning.
Twice that afternoon, with aching head and empty stomach, she faced strange
professors, in different branches. Once she escaped notice; the second time the
worst happened. She was asked a question she could not answer. "Have
you not decided on your course, and secured your books?" inquired the
professor. "I
have decided on my course," replied Elnora, "I do not know where to
ask for my books." "Ask?"
the professor was bewildered. "I
understood the books were furnished," faltered Elnora. "Only
to those bringing an order from the township trustee," replied the
Professor. "No! Oh no!" cried Elnora. "I will have them to-morrow,"
and gripped her desk for support for she knew that was not true. Four books,
ranging perhaps at a dollar and a half apiece; would her mother buy them? Of
course she would not — could not. Did not
Elnora know the story of old. There was enough land, but no one to do clearing
and farm. Tax on all those acres, recently the new gravel road tax added, the
expense of living and only the work of two women to meet all of it. She was
insane to think she could come to the city to school. Her mother had been
right. The girl decided that if only she lived to reach home, she would stay
there and lead any sort of life to avoid more of this torture. Bad as what she
wished to escape had been, it was nothing like this. She never could live down
the movement that went through the class when she inadvertently revealed the
fact that she had expected books to be furnished. Her mother would not secure
them; that settled the question. But the end
of misery is never in a hurry to come; before the day was over the
superintendent entered the room and explained that pupils from the country were
charged a tuition of twenty dollars a year. That really was the end. Previously
Elnora had canvassed a dozen methods for securing the money for books, ranging
all the way from offering to wash the superintendent's dishes to breaking into
the bank. This additional expense made her plans so wildly impossible, there
was nothing to do but hold up her head until she was from sight. Down the
long corridor alone among hundreds, down the long street alone among thousands,
out into the country she came at last. Across the fence and field, along the
old trail once trodden by a boy's bitter agony, now stumbled a white-faced
girl, sick at heart. She sat on a log and began to sob in spite of her efforts
at self-control. At first it was physical breakdown, later, thought came
crowding. Oh the
shame, the mortification! Why had she not known of the tuition? How did she
happen to think that in the city books were furnished? Perhaps it was because
she had read they were in several states. But why did she not know? Why did not
her mother go with her? Other mothers — but when had her mother ever been or
done anything at all like other mothers? Because she never had been it was
useless to blame her now. Elnora realized she should have gone to town the week
before, called on some one and learned all these things herself. She should
have remembered how her clothing would look, before she wore it in public
places. Now she knew, and her dreams were over. She must go home to feed
chickens, calves, and pigs, wear calico and coarse shoes, and with averted
head, pass a library all her life. She sobbed again. "For
pity's sake, honey, what's the matter?" asked the voice of the nearest
neighbour, Wesley Sinton, as he seated himself beside Elnora. "There,
there," he continued, smearing tears all over her face in an effort to dry
them. "Was it as bad as that, now? Maggie has been just wild over you all
day. She's got nervouser every minute. She said we were foolish to let you go.
She said your clothes were not right, you ought not to carry that tin pail, and
that they would laugh at you. By gum, I see they did!" "Oh,
Uncle Wesley," sobbed the girl, "why didn't she tell me?" "Well,
you see, Elnora, she didn't like to. You got such a way of holding up your
head, and going through with things. She thought some way that you'd make it,
till you got started, and then she begun to see a hundred things we should have
done. I reckon you hadn't reached that building before she remembered that your
skirt should have been pleated instead of gathered, your shoes been low, and
lighter for hot September weather, and a new hat. Were your clothes right,
Elnora?" The girl
broke into hysterical laughter. "Right!" she cried. "Right!
Uncle Wesley, you should have seen me among them! I was a picture! They'll
never forget me. No, they won't get the chance, for they'll see me again to-morrow!
"Now
that is what I call spunk, Elnora! Downright grit," said Wesley Sinton.
"Don't you let them laugh you out. You've helped Margaret and me for years
at harvest and busy times, what you've earned must amount to quite a sum. You
can get yourself a good many clothes with it." "Don't
mention clothes, Uncle Wesley," sobbed Elnora. "I don't care now how
I look. If I don't go back all of them will know it's because I am so poor I
can't buy my books." "Oh, I
don't know as you are so dratted poor," said Sinton meditatively.
"There are three hundred acres of good land, with fine timber as ever grew
on it." "It
takes all we can earn to pay the tax, and mother wouldn't cut a tree for her
life." "Well
then, maybe, I'll be compelled to cut one for her," suggested Sinton.
"Anyway, stop tearing yourself to pieces and tell me. If it isn't clothes,
what is it?" "It's
books and tuition. Over twenty dollars in all." "Humph!
First time I ever knew you to be stumped by twenty dollars, Elnora," said
Sinton, patting her hand. "It's
the first time you ever knew me to want money," answered Elnora.
"This is different from anything that ever happened to me. Oh, how can I
get it, Uncle Wesley?" "Drive
to town with me in the morning and I'll draw it from the bank for you. I owe
you every cent of it." "You
know you don't owe me a penny, and I wouldn't touch one from you, unless I
really could earn it. For anything that's past I owe you and Aunt Margaret for
all the home life and love I've ever known. I know how you work, and I'll not
take your money." "Just
a loan, Elnora, just a loan for a little while until you can earn it. You can
be proud with all the rest of the world, but there are no secrets between us,
are there, Elnora?" "No,"
said Elnora, "there are none. You and Aunt Margaret have given me all the
love there has been in my life. That is the one reason above all others why you
shall not give me charity. Hand me money because you find me crying for it!
This isn't the first time this old trail has known tears and heartache. All of
us know that story. Freckles stuck to what he undertook and won out. I stick,
too. When Duncan moved away he gave me all Freckles left in the swamp, and as I
have inherited his property maybe his luck will come with it. I won't touch
your money, but I'll win some way. First, I'm going home and try mother. It's
just possible I could find second-hand books, and perhaps all the tuition need
not be paid at once. Maybe they would accept it quarterly. But oh, Uncle
Wesley, you and Aunt Margaret keep on loving me! I'm so lonely, and no one else
cares!" Wesley
Sinton's jaws met with a click. He swallowed hard on bitter words and changed
what he would have liked to say three times before it became articulate. "Elnora,"
he said at last, "if it hadn't been for one thing I'd have tried to take
legal steps to make you ours when you were three years old. Maggie said then it
wasn't any use, but I've always held on. You see, I was the first man there,
honey, and there are things you see, that you can't ever make anybody else
understand. She loved him Elnora, she just made an idol of him. There was that
oozy green hole, with the thick scum broke, and two or three big bubbles slowly
rising that were the breath of his body. There she was in spasms of agony, and
beside her the great heavy log she'd tried to throw him. I can't ever forgive
her for turning against you, and spoiling your childhood as she has, but I
couldn't forgive anybody else for abusing her. Maggie has got no mercy on her,
but Maggie didn't see what I did, and I've never tried to make it very clear to
her. It's been a little too plain for me ever since. Whenever I look at your
mother's face, I see what she saw, so I hold my tongue and say, in my heart,
'Give her a mite more time.' Some day it will come. She does love you, Elnora.
Everybody does, honey. It's just that she's feeling so much, she can't express
herself. You be a patient girl and wait a little longer. After all, she's your
mother, and you're all she's got, but a memory, and it might do her good to let
her know that she was fooled in that." "It
would kill her!" cried the girl swiftly. "Uncle Wesley, it would kill
her! What do you mean?" "Nothing,"
said Wesley Sinton soothingly. "Nothing, honey. That was just one of them
fool things a man says, when he is trying his best to be wise. You see, she
loved him mightily, and they'd been married only a year, and what she was
loving was what she thought he was. She hadn't really got acquainted with the
man yet. If it had been even one more year, she could have borne it, and you'd
have got justice. Having been a teacher she was better educated and smarter
than the rest of us, and so she was more sensitive like. She can't understand
she was loving a dream. So I say it might do her good if somebody that knew,
could tell her, but I swear to gracious, I never could. I've heard her out at
the edge of that quagmire calling in them wild spells of hers off and on for
the last sixteen years, and imploring the swamp to give him back to her, and
I've got out of bed when I was pretty tired, and come down to see she didn't go
in herself, or harm you. What she feels is too deep for me. I've got to
respectin' her grief, and I can't get over it. Go home and tell your ma, honey,
and ask her nice and kind to help you. If she won't, then you got to swallow
that little lump of pride in your neck, and come to Aunt Maggie, like you been
a-coming all your life." "I'll
ask mother, but I can't take your money, Uncle Wesley, indeed I can't. I'll
wait a year, and earn some, and enter next year." "There's
one thing you don't consider, Elnora," said the man earnestly. "And
that's what you are to Maggie. She's a little like your ma. She hasn't given up
to it, and she's struggling on brave, but when we buried our second little girl
the light went out of Maggie's eyes, and it's not come back. The only time I
ever see a hint of it is when she thinks she's done something that makes you
happy, Elnora. Now, you go easy about refusing her anything she wants to do for
you. There's times in this world when it's our bounden duty to forget
ourselves, and think what will help other people. Young woman, you owe me and
Maggie all the comfort we can get out of you. There's the two of our own we
can't ever do anything for. Don't you get the idea into your head that a fool
thing you call pride is going to cut us out of all the pleasure we have in life
beside ourselves." "Uncle
Wesley, you are a dear," said Elnora. "Just a dear! If I can't
possibly get that money any way else on earth, I'll come and borrow it of you,
and then I'll pay it back if I must dig ferns from the swamp and sell them from
door to door in the city. I'll even plant them, so that they will be sure to
come up in the spring. I have been sort of panic stricken all day and couldn't
think. I can gather nuts and sell them. Freckles sold moths and butterflies,
and I've a lot collected. Of course, I am going back to-morrow! I can find a
way to get the books. Don't you worry about me. I am all right!" "Now,
what do you think of that?" inquired Wesley Sinton of the swamp in
general. "Here's our Elnora come back to stay. Head high and right as a
trivet! You've named three ways in three minutes that you could earn ten
dollars, which I figure would be enough to start you. Let's go to supper and
stop worrying!" Elnora
unlocked the case, took out the pail, put the napkin in it, pulled the ribbon
from her hair, binding it down tightly again and followed to the road. From
afar she could see her mother in the doorway. She blinked her eyes, and tried
to smile as she answered Wesley Sinton, and indeed she did feel better. She
knew now what she had to expect where to go, and what to do. Get the books she
must; when she had them, she would show those city girls and boys how to
prepare and recite lessons, how to walk with a brave heart; and they could show
her how to wear pretty clothes and have good times. As she
neared the door her mother reached for the pail. "I forgot to tell you to
bring home your scraps for the chickens," she said. Elnora
entered. "There weren't any scraps, and I'm hungry again as I ever was in
my life." "I
thought likely you would be," said Mrs. Comstock, "and so I got
supper ready. We can eat first, and do the work afterward. What kept you so? I
expected you an hour ago." Elnora
looked into her mother's face and smiled. It was a queer sort of a little
smile, and would have reached the depths with any normal mother. "I see
you've been bawling," said Mrs. Comstock. "I thought you'd get your
fill in a hurry. That's why I wouldn't go to any expense. If we keep out of the
poor-house we have to cut the corners close. It's likely this Brushwood road
tax will eat up all we've saved in years. Where the land tax is to come from I
don't know. It gets bigger every year. If they are going to dredge the swamp
ditch again they'll just have to take the land to pay for it. I can't, that's
all! We'll get up early in the morning and gather and hull the beans for
winter, and put in the rest of the day hoeing the turnips." Elnora again
smiled that pitiful smile. "Do
you think I didn't know that I was funny and would be laughed at?" she
asked. "Funny?"
cried Mrs. Comstock hotly. "Yes,
funny! A regular caricature," answered Elnora. "No one else wore
calico, not even one other. No one else wore high heavy shoes, not even one. No
one else had such a funny little old hat; my hair was not right, my ribbon
invisible compared with the others, I did not know where to go, or what to do,
and I had no books. What a spectacle I made for them!" Elnora laughed
nervously at her own picture. "But there are always two sides! The
professor said in the algebra class that he never had a better solution and
explanation than mine of the proposition he gave me, which scored one for me in
spite of my clothes." "Well,
I wouldn't brag on myself!" "That
was poor taste," admitted Elnora. "But, you see, it is a case of
whistling to keep up my courage. I honestly could see that I would have looked
just as well as the rest of them if I had been dressed as they were. We can't
afford that, so I have to find something else to brace me. It was rather bad,
mother!" "Well,
I'm glad you got enough of it!" "Oh,
but I haven't," hurried in Elnora. "I just got a start. The hardest
is over. To-morrow they won't be surprised. They will know what to expect. I am
sorry to hear about the dredge. Is it really going through?" "Yes.
I got my notification to-day. The tax will be something enormous. I don't know
as I can spare you, even if you are willing to be a laughing-stock for the
town." With every
bite Elnora's courage returned, for she was a healthy young thing. "You've
heard about doing evil that good might come from it," she said.
"Well, mother mine, it's something like that with me. I'm willing to bear
the hard part to pay for what I'll learn. Already I have selected the ward
building in which I shall teach in about four years. I am going to ask for a
room with a south exposure so that the flowers and moths I take in from the
swamp to show the children will do well." "You little
idiot!" said Mrs. Comstock. "How are you going to pay your
expenses?" "Now
that is just what I was going to ask you!" said Elnora. "You see, I
have had two startling pieces of news to-day. I did not know I would need any
money. I thought the city furnished the books, and there is an out-of-town
tuition, also. I need ten dollars in the morning. Will you please let me have
it?" "Ten
dollars!" cried Mrs. Comstock. "Ten dollars! Why don't you say a
hundred and be done with it! I could get one as easy as the other. I told you!
I told you I couldn't raise a cent. Every year expenses grow bigger and bigger.
I told you not to ask for money!" "I
never meant to," replied Elnora. "I thought clothes were all I needed
and I could bear them. I never knew about buying books and tuition." "Well,
I did!" said Mrs. Comstock. "I knew what you would run into! But you
are so bull-dog stubborn, and so set in your way, I thought I would just let
you try the world a little and see how you liked it!" Elnora
pushed back her chair and looked at her mother. "Do you
mean to say," she demanded, "that you knew, when you let me go into a
city classroom and reveal the fact before all of them that I expected to have
my books handed out to me; do you mean to say that you knew I had to pay for
them?" Mrs.
Comstock evaded the direct question. "Anybody
but an idiot mooning over a book or wasting time prowling the woods would have
known you had to pay. Everybody has to pay for everything. Life is made up of
pay, pay, pay! It's always and forever pay! If you don't pay one way you do
another! Of course, I knew you had to pay. Of course, I knew you would come
home blubbering! But you don't get a penny! I haven't one cent, and can't get
one! Have your way if you are determined, but I think you will find the road
somewhat rocky." "Swampy,
you mean, mother," corrected Elnora. She arose white and trembling.
"Perhaps some day God will teach me how to understand you. He knows I do
not now. You can't possibly realize just what you let me go through to-day, or
how you let me go, but I'll tell you this: You understand enough that if you
had the money, and would offer it to me, I wouldn't touch it now. And I'll tell
you this much more. I'll get it myself. I'll raise it, and do it some honest
way. I am going back to-morrow, the next day, and the next. You need not come
out, I'll do the night work, and hoe the turnips." It was ten
o'clock when the chickens, pigs, and cattle were fed, the turnips hoed, and a
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